Thinking of Life

Sometimes I just sit and think about how much has gone on in my life.  Some of it not so great and some of it so great!  Sometimes that not so great feels like more then the great stuff, but I really know it's not.  I realize I need to rise above all of these awful things and hold onto all the goodness my life brings.  We has human beings think things should be all roses, but if we try to look at all the positive things that come out of the negative we'd all feel better.

Although I have lost a lot in my life, my Mom, Dad, Grandparents, I still need to realize the gifts that these people gave me.  They gave me Amazing memories!  I've shared some great things with them and although they are gone now, they are memories we speak about all the time in our house.  From what they didn't like to eat and what they did, expressions they used, and the things that would make us laugh so much you'd almost wet yourself!  These are the times that need reflection. 

Ever thought about once your gone?  I have, and I don't want people to be sad, miserable, depressed.  I want people to remember me as the honest, loving, caring and funny person I know that I give to many people's lives, and I want all the people I know and love to be happy and live life to the fullest with no regrets!  And I'm thinking most want that to, and I believe that's what all the people I've lost wanted for me.

So go out there make memories, enjoy each other, the housework will wait until tomorrow, or the day after that, or the day after that!  Remember to live, laugh, love! xo

March 5, 1920 - April 19, 2012

What is important about 1920? This lady in the picture was born,
who knew that she would end up being my Nana? Well I'm certainly glad that she was! She was a special lady to me. We had a lot of laughs through the years of growing up. I was lucky to have her in my life for such a long time, and that she was always there in it with her full mind. My parents were amazing people, always had my Nana fly over here, or we did many family trips to visit her over seas, the Ocean is huge, but never kept the relationship I had with her very far apart.

Tonight I came home to find out that she passed away today. She's been waiting for her husband (who passed 39 years ago) to come take her with him, she'd be waiting forever she'd say. She lost my Aunt Sue (her daughter-in-law) 19 years ago, and lost my Mom (her other daughter-in-law) 9 years ago, and lost my Dad (her son) 9 year sago as well. This woman was amazing! Fought through all the sad times, and yet still came out the other side with a brave face and smile. She always would say, when is he coming for me, which was my Grandad, I would always tell her they aren't ready yet to get the party started, Once the party is ready, he'll come. And he did today, April 19 , 2012. She had always said that she hoped she would just fall asleep and that would be it, and that's what happened!

Although I know she was 92, my heart breaks, another piece of me is gone. I've had a lot of loss in my life, and as I'm always told, "you only get thrown at you what you can handle", well I'd say this is enough.

What I'll miss the most are my Saturday morning cups of tea with her. Every Saturday morning I would make a cup of tea and give her a call in England, I looked forward to my Saturday's with her, we would laugh, cry, tell stories, it was special to me and I know it was to her as well.

Since my Dad passed away I've made her the centre of my family, she was the tie to my parents, a huge part of my life. I'll miss her laugh, her cheeky ways, her telling me off, her stories, her!

Last time I saw her in November 2011, she told me not to cry when she did go, just like every other time I left her, but the tears will not stop as I write this, sorry Nana!

She was admitted to hospital at the beginning of February this year with an infection, and she did get better, was put in a respite care for rehabilitation, and in the past couple of weeks she admitted she could not go back to living on her own and choose to go into a home. On Monday of this week my Uncle and Aunt moved her into a home in which she stayed 3 nights, then fell asleep to go to her party!

Hope the party was worth waiting for Nana, you will be greatly missed! I love you! xo We love you! xox0

I was very lucky to have the oppotunity to go visit her a lot, these are some pictures over some of the years! I'd have to pull other pics to scan see there wasn't digital for all the other times! :)

BramptonGuardian Article: Brampton home to Ontario’s first kidney wellness centre

BramptonGuardian Article: Brampton home to Ontario’s first kidney wellness centre

Great to see progress for Kidney Wellness in Ontario. Brampton has the highest growth rates in dialysis patients in Ontario. Power of Postive Thinking and Prayer!

A New Challenge For Me

Tonight I did my first ever run/walk with my daughter. 1.74 miles, in 23 minutes.....I'm not looking to make it a race, I'm looking to get out there and exercise more.....you know heart health, feel good health! Even better I can do this with my daughter.

My daughter is a lover of track & field and cross country running, although I was at a slower pace then her, she was a wonderful encourager. Her track & field meet will be the end of May beginning of June so this will help her, especially since she normally makes the long distance running.

Although I had to walk on and off I think I did rather well for me! I had a heart problem growing up and was unable to run without passing out, and I had to watch everything I did that put a strain on my heart. The Dr cleared me to be able to excercise freely 11 years ago, and it took me 10 years to get myself out there and start to exercise. Over the past 15 months I've been going to Fuzion, which I really enjoy. So I'll be still going to Fuzion twice per week, but now I will try and add running a few times per week as well.

Thank you to my friend Bev who got me out to Fuzion that one night, thanks to Skye for being an enthusiastic instructor at Fuzion to make me want to continue going, thanks to all the new people I've met there that make it that much easier to go, thank you to my wonderful daughter who is my number one fan, and most of all thank you to my husband who enables me to do all that I can do!

Sickness

I have not been myself for a week now, I have been sick. But not my usual, chest, sinus or ear infection, it's a weird feeling. Today I started feeling dizzy (vertigo), sweats, body aches......weird! I have missed Fuzion so much (3 classes so far), which brings me down. I'm hoping that Thursday finds me feeling better and I'm able to start back at it. Nothing beats a great workout to make my mind feel better, and not to mention seeing all the people I've met there over the past year!

Mother-In-Law

My Mother-In-Law was taken to hospital on Saturday by ambulance, the Dr's are saying it was a very bad infection. Yesterday evening she had a heart attack. She lives so far away it is difficult for us, especially for my husband. She is 86 years young, and really had no ailments her entire life. She has had many children, and is married to a wonderful man. Praying that she will heal and get back home to her soulmate! xo

Fuzion Event - David Suzuki Football Team

A Fuzion event to raise money for the David Suzuki Football Team is scheduled for April 14, 2012 at Royal Orchard Middle School in Brampton. It will run from 5 pm - 7 pm. The minimum donation is $10 per adult, $5.00 per student.

Have you ever been to Fuzion? It's a lot of fun! It's excercise, but yes it's fun! Have you ever thought you could say excercise and fun in the same moment? Well come out and try Fuzion, you may just get hooked on it like I did!

Join Skye Bowen with her enthusiastic way to help the kids use their talents towards their football team!

Kidney Clinic Visit

Went to the Kidney Clinic today. Creatnine levels are up slightly, all other levels are normal. Watching the diet is proving to assist the stablizing of the levels. Reading everything there is to learn about Kidney Disease so I'm more informed of what to encounter. Dialysis hasn't been mentioned to start yet, but it might be close, around the corner. I know the Nephrologist is hoping for a transplant before needing dialysis. The Dr is great, fantastic, considerate and compassionate, all what is needed in a Nephrologist! We keep praying that things will turn out right, positive prayer will keep us in the right direction.

Also Remember to register yourself at Be A Donor on line, you could save a life of someone you love!

March Break 2012

We went to our Old Faithful, Jamaica. If you have never been to Jamaica you need to make a point of going! Jamaica are full of wonderful people, food and culture you won't be disappointed!

Happy New Year 2012!

2012 rang in quite quietly, but very welcomed.

2011 was a year full of go, go, go. There was never a dull moment, and it is full of memories. Overcame obstacles that I challenged myself with.

This year 2012 will bring many challenges, emotional times, but most of all hope.

Stay tuned for this roller coaster ride called..............The 2012 Challenge!

England 2011

Went to England to visit my family, and had a great time. We did some sightseeing as well. Went to Warwick Castle on Halloween, which made the castle that much more fun for us, went to Worcester to do shopping and visit the Catherdral, went to Stratford, saw Shakespears home, went shopping and to lunch.

The visit was more importantly to see my Nana who is 91. She is doing good, has all her memory and is able to share them which is so important. The downfall is her mobility. She doesn't like surprises on her door step as it takes a long time to answer the door, what she does like is all the phone calls I make to her every week. I have my cup of tea with her when I call, it's our time to sit and have a natter. I'm glad I've kept this connection with my Grandmother, as I will always have these memories that her and I continue to create.

It was very difficult leaving her and the rest of my family, since we are so far apart. Glad there is such thing as computers & phones, it makes the ocean seem that much smaller.

Common Sense

Found this saying today. Every wonder why people try and push their thoughts and beliefs onto you? It's annoying. I believe in what I believe in, no need to try and think that I'm wrong. There are people out there that think they know better (I like to call them know-it-alls). Imagine thinking that your better then others.....I think those people need to take a little closer look at themselves, because while their being so high and mighty, I'm pretty sure a lot is falling down around them. Remember it's not all book smarts, it's not all street smarts.........it's just all plain common sense! :)

Emmanuel Kelly The X Factor 2011 Auditions Emmanuel Kelly FULL

My daughter told me to watch this youtube video of X-Factor. She told me to listen closely to what the judges say at the end of the clip. It is a very touching story. "It makes everything you worry about so pathetic!" Glad my girl caught the message of this story, it makes me realize just how she thinks and feels. Love my girl!

Fuzion for Kidney's

Last night my instructor for Fuzion, Skye Bowen held a Fuzion Charity event where all amounts collected were given to The Kidney Foundation of Canada. Approximately 50 people turned up to support my husband who suffers for kidney disease, and the foundation. It was wonderful to see the support we received from extraordinary people. Major emotions came over me, as I felt the support just by being in the gym with this generous and caring people. For not knowing people for too long, or even that personal it was touching to see this support. It certainly proves the goodness in people. All in all $535.00 was raised for the Kidney Foundation of Canada! Thank you to all who donated and participated in this event, you are truly amazing friends! :)

Longtime

Went to dinner with a friend of mine last night, haven't seen her since my parent's funeral and to be honest I don't remember much about who came (sorry to who are reading this). But I was so happy to see her, she gave me a kind of comfort that I can't explain. Let's just say she was my Mom's friend and I felt my Mom around us as we caught up, so happy to have done that, and looking forward to more time like that!

Finally

We finally received our call to go get the medical work up started for a transplant. We are very pleased to have this ball start rolling. Hopefully everything goes smooth and we get the results we have been praying for.

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving, a time for family & friends....always a difficult time to get through knowing my family get togethers are very small (just the 3 of us). It was nice to get a call from my god-mother to invite us to dinner with her family. Her family has always felt like my family since we have always been close. It was a nice afternoon evening, especially with the weather being as beautiful as it was, 29 degrees, at Thanksgiving, who would have thought!

Happy Thanksgiving to all!

A Weekend of Romance Away in Jamaica 2011

What a wonderful 3 night, 4 day trip for me and my husband. It was a much needed weekend away, and with the wonderful friends that we are lucky to know and love we were able to sit back and relax and not worry too much about our daughter.

We stayed at Secrets St James in Montego Bay, such a beautiful resort, very Americanized was the downfall for us (we love the feel of Jamaica & the people this resort was lacking that). But by far it was a 5+++ star resort.

The mornings were hot and we went for breakfast, and lounged on the beach. The afternoons (2ish) it rained, thunderstorms, but it was still watm and we enjoyed sitting around the bar chatting to each other, which as many know is difficult with an only child around.

We really enjoyed out time together, as a couple once again.......working on our relationship is so important for the years to come, knowing that one day our child will grow up and move on, it's good to know that we love each other's company just as we need all those years ago when we met for the first time.

Cheers!

Labor day means The End of Summer"

It's Labor Day! Where did the 10 weeks of summer go? Leading up to summer I always am anxious about all the summer camps to choose from and the organizing of them all. But alas they are all over and off to Grade 6 my daughter will go.

What was done over the summer.....camps my daughter enjoyed was, adventures camps, horseback riding camps, cooking camps, animals camps and also at her friends house for a few weeks, and a week of family vacation.

Now tomorrow we start back to a routine, which is totally up my alley.....everything organized, afterschool activities, homework, just everything organized.

So as we celebrate Labor Day, we also celebrate "The End of Summer"....today was very cool outside (Fall like)......but I spent my Labor Day, organizing books and a backpack, cleaning the house, and just being home. I'm thankful for these days off, with nothing open, to make you do nothing or something around the house.

So as we bring on another school year, another fall season, I'm hopeful for calm, organized, sucessful school year.......hey, one can only hope and dream! ;)