Thinking of Life

Sometimes I just sit and think about how much has gone on in my life.  Some of it not so great and some of it so great!  Sometimes that not so great feels like more then the great stuff, but I really know it's not.  I realize I need to rise above all of these awful things and hold onto all the goodness my life brings.  We has human beings think things should be all roses, but if we try to look at all the positive things that come out of the negative we'd all feel better.

Although I have lost a lot in my life, my Mom, Dad, Grandparents, I still need to realize the gifts that these people gave me.  They gave me Amazing memories!  I've shared some great things with them and although they are gone now, they are memories we speak about all the time in our house.  From what they didn't like to eat and what they did, expressions they used, and the things that would make us laugh so much you'd almost wet yourself!  These are the times that need reflection. 

Ever thought about once your gone?  I have, and I don't want people to be sad, miserable, depressed.  I want people to remember me as the honest, loving, caring and funny person I know that I give to many people's lives, and I want all the people I know and love to be happy and live life to the fullest with no regrets!  And I'm thinking most want that to, and I believe that's what all the people I've lost wanted for me.

So go out there make memories, enjoy each other, the housework will wait until tomorrow, or the day after that, or the day after that!  Remember to live, laugh, love! xo

March 5, 1920 - April 19, 2012

What is important about 1920? This lady in the picture was born,
who knew that she would end up being my Nana? Well I'm certainly glad that she was! She was a special lady to me. We had a lot of laughs through the years of growing up. I was lucky to have her in my life for such a long time, and that she was always there in it with her full mind. My parents were amazing people, always had my Nana fly over here, or we did many family trips to visit her over seas, the Ocean is huge, but never kept the relationship I had with her very far apart.

Tonight I came home to find out that she passed away today. She's been waiting for her husband (who passed 39 years ago) to come take her with him, she'd be waiting forever she'd say. She lost my Aunt Sue (her daughter-in-law) 19 years ago, and lost my Mom (her other daughter-in-law) 9 years ago, and lost my Dad (her son) 9 year sago as well. This woman was amazing! Fought through all the sad times, and yet still came out the other side with a brave face and smile. She always would say, when is he coming for me, which was my Grandad, I would always tell her they aren't ready yet to get the party started, Once the party is ready, he'll come. And he did today, April 19 , 2012. She had always said that she hoped she would just fall asleep and that would be it, and that's what happened!

Although I know she was 92, my heart breaks, another piece of me is gone. I've had a lot of loss in my life, and as I'm always told, "you only get thrown at you what you can handle", well I'd say this is enough.

What I'll miss the most are my Saturday morning cups of tea with her. Every Saturday morning I would make a cup of tea and give her a call in England, I looked forward to my Saturday's with her, we would laugh, cry, tell stories, it was special to me and I know it was to her as well.

Since my Dad passed away I've made her the centre of my family, she was the tie to my parents, a huge part of my life. I'll miss her laugh, her cheeky ways, her telling me off, her stories, her!

Last time I saw her in November 2011, she told me not to cry when she did go, just like every other time I left her, but the tears will not stop as I write this, sorry Nana!

She was admitted to hospital at the beginning of February this year with an infection, and she did get better, was put in a respite care for rehabilitation, and in the past couple of weeks she admitted she could not go back to living on her own and choose to go into a home. On Monday of this week my Uncle and Aunt moved her into a home in which she stayed 3 nights, then fell asleep to go to her party!

Hope the party was worth waiting for Nana, you will be greatly missed! I love you! xo We love you! xox0

I was very lucky to have the oppotunity to go visit her a lot, these are some pictures over some of the years! I'd have to pull other pics to scan see there wasn't digital for all the other times! :)

BramptonGuardian Article: Brampton home to Ontario’s first kidney wellness centre

BramptonGuardian Article: Brampton home to Ontario’s first kidney wellness centre

Great to see progress for Kidney Wellness in Ontario. Brampton has the highest growth rates in dialysis patients in Ontario. Power of Postive Thinking and Prayer!

A New Challenge For Me

Tonight I did my first ever run/walk with my daughter. 1.74 miles, in 23 minutes.....I'm not looking to make it a race, I'm looking to get out there and exercise more.....you know heart health, feel good health! Even better I can do this with my daughter.

My daughter is a lover of track & field and cross country running, although I was at a slower pace then her, she was a wonderful encourager. Her track & field meet will be the end of May beginning of June so this will help her, especially since she normally makes the long distance running.

Although I had to walk on and off I think I did rather well for me! I had a heart problem growing up and was unable to run without passing out, and I had to watch everything I did that put a strain on my heart. The Dr cleared me to be able to excercise freely 11 years ago, and it took me 10 years to get myself out there and start to exercise. Over the past 15 months I've been going to Fuzion, which I really enjoy. So I'll be still going to Fuzion twice per week, but now I will try and add running a few times per week as well.

Thank you to my friend Bev who got me out to Fuzion that one night, thanks to Skye for being an enthusiastic instructor at Fuzion to make me want to continue going, thanks to all the new people I've met there that make it that much easier to go, thank you to my wonderful daughter who is my number one fan, and most of all thank you to my husband who enables me to do all that I can do!

Sickness

I have not been myself for a week now, I have been sick. But not my usual, chest, sinus or ear infection, it's a weird feeling. Today I started feeling dizzy (vertigo), sweats, body aches......weird! I have missed Fuzion so much (3 classes so far), which brings me down. I'm hoping that Thursday finds me feeling better and I'm able to start back at it. Nothing beats a great workout to make my mind feel better, and not to mention seeing all the people I've met there over the past year!

Mother-In-Law

My Mother-In-Law was taken to hospital on Saturday by ambulance, the Dr's are saying it was a very bad infection. Yesterday evening she had a heart attack. She lives so far away it is difficult for us, especially for my husband. She is 86 years young, and really had no ailments her entire life. She has had many children, and is married to a wonderful man. Praying that she will heal and get back home to her soulmate! xo

Fuzion Event - David Suzuki Football Team

A Fuzion event to raise money for the David Suzuki Football Team is scheduled for April 14, 2012 at Royal Orchard Middle School in Brampton. It will run from 5 pm - 7 pm. The minimum donation is $10 per adult, $5.00 per student.

Have you ever been to Fuzion? It's a lot of fun! It's excercise, but yes it's fun! Have you ever thought you could say excercise and fun in the same moment? Well come out and try Fuzion, you may just get hooked on it like I did!

Join Skye Bowen with her enthusiastic way to help the kids use their talents towards their football team!